LOve....LOve and LOve

THis is for those who are in love and who are also loved. This is to those who had been broken but finally found their right man. THis is for those who have felt betrayed but decided to move on. THis is for those who hoped for a happy ending but was given false hope by the man they once love, and finally this is for me and for u, who once felt the pain but finally found the man who can get that little pieces together. I dont know how to start this, but i want you all to feel how happy i am at this very moment. I dont know how it started but it doesnt matter, what's important is, i feel its right. I just wanna let you know that i really really want him now and forever perhaps. I love u babe.

Just a THought

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"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didnt do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore.Dream.Discover"

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-Mark Twain

My man

I used to call him my babe, my honey, my baby, my sweety but above all he is my bestfriend, my confidante, my sweetheart just my man. He may not always be here physically but always and almost he is here, always here for me. When i decided to take a break in my career, he was the one i first consulted. I can feel how he was worried when i felt the world was stumbling down on me.When i parted ways with my former bf, ive thought it was the end of a beautiful story but He proved it wrong, he proved it once again that really distance cannot hinders a story inspired by time and trust. I have lots of things to be grateful with, but im not rushing things, this time i want HIM to make the lead. True enough, i am slowly falling in love with him...just found out recenlty.goodluck to me.

May Bukas Pa

Let me just take this chance to commend this higly rated primetime series of ABS - CBN for a job well done, you know im really not a television fanatic nor you can see me watching local drama series, its not that i dont like their genre, its just that i usually dont have time to watch them. Luckily as im in a vacation, i was given this chance to watch their after-dinner offering for both networks,on my first time to watch "may bukas pa", i really felt somethin else, its not the usual offering and rags to riches love story or an anime like what the usual trend is.

May Bukas Pa is about a boy named Santino who has the ability to see Jesus and be able to talk to HIM, he has the ability to heal and do some miracles, the story is set on a fictional inspired town named Bagong Pag-Asa. What i just like about this teleserye, is that it has lots of big surprises and not boring, it inspired viewers and really gave us refelections not only about the battle between good and evil but more importantly about our faith. Whether we believe in the same God or with different God's, it taught us that really in this world, there is still powerful person behind this and He is none other than, our bestfriend, our brother, our clasmate, our neighbor, and as to whoever you like him to address, He is our BRO.

Last night their episode was about Santino's doubt on Bro, he was actually questioning HIm as to why he is always put in messeries,he decided to leave his place with nowhere to go, he was able to meet diffrent people who gave him the same insights about HIM, at the end of the day, the lesson was that, theres no such thing as coincidence in thsi world, coz everything has reasons and all that is happening in our respective life are all meant to be. They are designed to happen for reasons we may not know, even those criminals and those less fortunate, yeah they are there for purpuses we may not either know or understand. But im sure, HE does. So to those who are really down at this ver moment or maybe we questioned sometimes why we are like this, just always put in mind that it is there coz it is meant to be there. Lets always be inspired to embrace life with imperfections, let always be positive in any trials and shortcomings. Coz believe it or not, we always have a confidant along the way, BRO.

Unknown

Just in time after i finished some online stuff, i was surprised to see an unknown call from my phone, but i just have one person in mind, no other than the closest and dearest person now,hmmm. And my bet was correct, when i come online now, ive read his offline message telling me that he tried to call me yersterday like 4 pm in my time. He was really the one. And who else will?hheheh, actually there are just few people who knew my personal number, just those who were that close to me other than my significant others. Truelly i regret not having talk to him, coz our last conversation was last sunday and it really took us almost half an hour and it was just cut off when my battery got empty, i missed him already. You know i realized God has been really good to me all through out, though sometimes i questioned his will on me but always and almost after i finally got HIS message, i certainly thank him for bringing great people on my life. To everybody out there, learn to trust.

Wishlist

Well and well, as 2010 enters heres the favorite thing to do for every blogger, heres my wishlist for 2010:

1. A cute stuff toy
2. i look forward to receive flowers this 2010
3. i wish to really see my honey personally by 2010
4. i wish i could have children by 2010 ( with father..hehehe)
5. i wish to see my brother graduating this year
6. i wish to won a laptop
7. i wish to experience really true love
8. i wish to have a vacation by this year
9. i wish i could help other people even with the simpleast act
10. i wish to earn a page rank here.

just 10 by now coz i knew it would be so hard again to attain plenty of wishlist..But no matter how long my wishes were, as the great author once said, theres no harm in dreaming and in trying but make sure all our goals and wishes are attainable. These are just wishes but like real believer of Fairy's and genies, i still wish them to come true..in time.

Rainy Morning

well a cold morning to everyone, i started to blog very early coz i was to do something so urgent. But thank god i had this chance to update once again, hence nothing so meaningful today exce[pt for my plan to go to downtown and visit my bank. But i dont know if its a good idea to go now coz of the pouring of heavy rains, wish mr. sunshine would come and visit us first, lots of hanging clothes that is still wet until now.poor clothes. Anyways, allow me to greet my visitors who were really nice enough to visits me often, to tech most especially.A big thanks.

One More Chance

One more chance for one last time. And for the very last time, allow me to reminisce the memories that was left. It was already 1 year and 8 months to be exact when I became commited to my former bf. He was a sales specialist on a veterinary product and i was an admin asst before when our love story was created by time. There was no official or should i say formal courstship that happened, it was just civil and just one day i finally wake up that we are already a couple. He used to be in my place as often as possible, yeah because he needs to be in our office coz he covers too our verterinarian at that time, I admit it was one of my happiest days in my life, i was taught to embrace simplicity in life. When i was very strict before, hes coming allow me to understand imprefections in life. After 3 months of dating, i have discovered one shocking truth that changed the entire thing, he was involved with a woman before and they have lived in, worst they already have a child. That was the day i remember change the entire me, my tears cant talk how i was broken but my heart knew that healing will not happen overnight, i was being broken into tiny pieces. The moment he confessed that truth to me, he aske dme, if i could still accept him? I knew i was blinded by my love that time, i believe i dont have a choice, its hard to leave him but i realized it was harder to stay. I decided to allow our relationship to go on with the flow. Though its really painful i accepted his son and treat him as my own, he already introduced me to his parents and to some of the friends as well. I felt it was already complete that time, i wanted to believe, we already had a happy ending. But time proved otherwise, it was just one ordinary day when he missent a text message to me, before he knew it, i already knew that he was dating his fellow collegue who was a veterinarian by profession too. It tore my heart one more time, i felt i was really betrayed but no matter how i initiated the break up, its me again who will ask him to stay. No matter how hard our trials were, i was strong enough to fight every battle, i wanted to win him everytime someone selfish enough would end my happiness, but true enough, one sided love broke the see saw down, just mid of this year when everything finally ended. A friend called up to ask how we were doing, i tried to hide everything by merely saying we are doing great, but what i dont know is that things naturally fall to where it is destined for. Too late, i have found out that he was seeing a girl from Manila and he even visited her and spend some time with her, That made me so hurt and degraded, i just lived somewhere in this province but he did not come to visit me like a loving bf would. I still tried to save for the last time our relationship, And if ever i could just turn back the hands of time, i would probably just be there for him all the time back to the days when he was mine,so that he would not have the chance to look for another girl. But i was definitely so wrong, coz no matter how we loved someone, if they dont loved us back, it would just be painful to hold on...i realized i need to let him go and i need to let myself go too. I believe we need to seperate ways for us to grow and wait for the right time. One more chance doesnt fit us at all at that very moment coz i want to believe that we need the right chance to rekindle the old flame, the flame that made our feelings right.

My friend was indeed right, wounded knees are easy to heal than broken hearts, i have been broken twice and been wounded few times but i still look forward for my falling and rising and everything in between.

Rainy Saturday

Hmmmm, as my the title says itself, we had a very cold saturdy here, wish we have someone to hug and pretty good to stay in bed today. Well i dont have plans for today except to come online and wait for my babe,hmmm, curious? well and well, the babe is not from here, he is from the foreign land..hehehe. I just wait for him to come online, unfortunately we were not able to chat, maybe he was just busy, but i knew he will read this post later. Tomorrow will be a great day for me, my bestfriend in highschool arrived and she was inviting me to come over to their place tomorrow. I missed her already, might as well go there and do a little chit chats. Yesterday, we went to National bookstore and i am really amazed that as early as now, valentine cards are already saleable, yeah, there are already plenty of valentine stuff there,i am so envy with the students who were really very busy reading those cards and trying to choose what cards best fit their loved ones, but thats lfe, we have our own share of frustrations everyday, but though my heart beats for someone miles away, still i can say that he is just so near with me, coz he is always here, in my heart - everyday.

Tell Me

Honestly i was really trying to figure out what to write in here by now, my mind is not yet working, my heart is still not in good terms.Right now i am listening to the music of Joey Albert "Tell Me", going back, this song was very memorable to me, it was my favorite song wayback in my high school years, i remember dedicating this song to my 4 years crush who was just a neighbor, i remember how i shed tears whenever i hear this song especially if it was played midnight when everybody was past asleep, i remember how i was trying to buy a lot of times in there store just to see him but now i do remember him but not the feelings anymore. But by merely listening to this song, i just cant remember him but the few people who had became part of my heart, those who have take good care of it and those who have tear it and left. I knew i cant waste my life forever, holding back and holding on coz there are still few things to look forward for, though i always ask "where did i go wrong?'' and oftentimes wondered 'why did it have to end up so soon?'' but i know someday "ill let it go with this "goodbye".