When choices arise, its still whats best for us and what we think at that moment that will give us peace of mind that will surely win the game. Winning is not at all times about having a happy ending, not even about a fullfilment of a wish or dream but at the end of the day sometimes winning defines as having to wake up one morning feeling contented and to have the right reason to smile. Having a feeling of being so ruined and broken create a big difference to someone elses life. When sometimes you even bargain to do anything for that person - up to that extent yet still, not enough. Then should you settle for anything less just to fullfill the meotion of being loved? or should you run after him and shout to the entire world that this person means a lot to you. Sometimes out of the blue feeling, i am tempted really to do the stupid and the worst things a woman could ever do for love, out of desperation perhaps, like begging and trade anything he wants just to win him back BUT the thought alone hurts me, how much more the act itself. Remembering our times and our memories couldnt really be of help, just making things worst. I kept telling myself that things has its own time and that the journey ha sits own moment and things just happened if its really GOd's willing. Which made me think that God really and purposely break our ties, to have separate lives. He really intends to make my path away from him, as to what purpose and reason, i still dont know by now.
I am sacred to fall in love again, i am scared that i might be hurt again, i am scared of the possiblity of being played all over again. BUT HE promised of a love that is beyond compare, and for a life that was made out of sincere love, i know whoever that person i am about to meet , it will be a promise of sincere love, that THEY once had wasted.