Friday, September 26, 2008

Pity me

Last night, i was on deep thought because i am having really a financial problem considering that i lost all my savings when i was hospitalized,it came to a point that when i went back to work, i dont have even a single cent plus my medication is really too expensive. It really made me feel so bad because thu i wanted to make things fine, i couldnt because i dont even had enough money to sustain my medication plus i will have my check - up tomorrow and i still dont know if i would be able to visit my doctor...poor me.. Sometimes in desperation, i end up crying because i really didnt foresee things like financial burden..BUT i believe that things are not constant, everything subject to change, hopefully as i wake one morning, all this stuff are over. how i wish its very soon.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

The game your lovelife most resembles is:

a. Chess - you mount all kinds of men, then knock them out of the picture..Next please!

b. Poker - you dont know all your cards to your playmates, until the time is right.

c. Monopoly - you like claiming your property.

a very happy birthday to me

Well, since i havent greet myself on my birthday, i will take this post to greet myself a very happy birthday to me *sigh*..hehhe..because of inevitable circumstances, i celebrated my birthday at the hospital, the celebration i was planning to have was postponed due to my illness, but then since everything is fine now, im crossing my finger that someone could remember me and gave me a surprise...hehhhe..just kidding...a good health for me and for my family is enough gift...

Sunday, September 21, 2008

"i love walkin in the rain, so that no one could see me cryin"

A few days before my birthday, i was really so excited since i will already be celebrating my special day, i was counting the nights to my 23rd natal day, what i did not know, it was a countdown to the hospital, since 3 days before i reached my birthday, i was rushed to the hospital, with a diagnosed serious urinary tract infection and to my dismay my kidney was also affected to the point that the moment i was admitted at the emergency room, the nurses injected a high dose antibiotic because the bacteria already spread in my body. Worst comes to worst, my body was already too pale and very weak..i couldnt anymore afford to swallow food, i have to rely on my dextrose for me to survive. I couldnt remember of the exact word i uttered before i lost my consciosness, but one thing i knew that time, i was asking God to help me at that desperate times of my life. Indeed, nobody knew what will happen to us, and in the same manner that nobody could tell when his last day is.
Ive celebrated my birthday at the hospital with my close friends, as before i was thinkin of a great party but then at that time, as ive seen my family and my friends beside me, one thing came to realization.."i couldnt ask for more", i am just thankful that God has blessed me with wonderful people in my life, and if i had one wish on that special day, and that is for them to stay with me, with God up there, and my significant others around me, theyre enough to complete my life.

Monday, September 8, 2008

A fresh monday

A great morning to everyone, well, its me onece again signing in for a great day and hopefully all the best for the entire weekdays. As usual, my monday woundnt be complete without mu routinary reports, and heck, it really made my day streesful but this is how a career girl is.
Have a nice day everyone

Saturday, September 6, 2008

To my dear lalabs

I could never imagine to meet in my entire life, a man i could consider the missing puzzle in my life. Destiny allowed our paths to cross thru cb, and from that on, i became the happiest woman on earth. He was the man i consider most precious, we are on our 2 years in our relationship and until this very moment, i am still in love with the man i couldnt live without.

Friday, September 5, 2008

missin you

Love can really change your life, theres something magic in it, i feel so free, its like a fantasy, heaven next to me...suddenly its magic..

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Good morning

Good morning bloggers, i will be on official business trip today and tomorrow, i cant catch updates by today, but promise i will visit your blog as sooon as ill come back, thanks for the visit and promise i will return a visit too, thanks for the votes too.
To those who would like to have exchange links, just leave me a message..
Have nice day everyone...

Monday, September 1, 2008

When its smartest to forgive and move on?

He cheated you: Do you take him back?
or dump him?

i felt broken...

Thats how my heart is now. I feel betrayed and frustrated, i just dont know, perhaps because i expected too much, i expected much, much more. When can one say that loving too much is wrong? Is it when no one is left in you but still you continue to love him despite his unjust treatment? or Is it loving him despite the fact that his heart is still owned by his past?
Indeed, loving somebody involves sacrifice, it entails a lot of tears, of happy moments, of laughters, of disappointments and a lot lot more. I never felt so tired of loving him, of loving someone, despite all the pain and heartaches that i went thru, i was never getting tired...
just now....