Maybe This Time

Life is so ironic, pretty funny..When the time came the man i loved most leaved me with nothing but memories and sleepless nights, ive thought its going to be a sad ending for this year, i mean everybody wants love and love and love this holiday, we want to feel that we are loved and we want to share those love to someone especial, nonetheless God is really so good to me, i mean for a short time, HE didnt leave me, He always make it a point to make me feel that i am special. Now after few months of mending the heartaches, i can totally say that i am already over on him. And honestly my thoughts and my heart is being bothered by someone i just met on the net. BUT i am so confused still if love is possible here, hope it is. But one thing im just afraid most, is maybe the time came that i would found out again that this is just a game those guys usually play..To the man im thinking right now, i know who you are, i might not be able to chat with you today, but i read your offline message and just want to let you know that you have changed my life in just one night, the night we have chatted and i feel so comfortable with you really, that no one has ever did..I knew its still premature to say that this is it, but i want to believe this is the journey to it..Please know that you have already the key to my heart..and hopefully those little pieces ive used to love you will be enough to make you stay forever, MAYBE THIS TIME, it will be LOVE.

Goodbye....

Saying goodbye to the one so dear to us is the most painful thing to do in this world, how could we ever do that without hurting the other party, nevertheless there are lots of forms of goodbyes, some would just turn their back on you without a word, some would tell you straight in person and sadly some would show you that they still love u or will show that you are important but deep inisde their heart you are nothing but an ordinary woman for them. One time i received a text message from a good friend, it states "sometimes goodbyes are unsaid, cause though his mouth didnt say that but youre heart can tell",You knew i have been in a lot of painful experience, they have left me broken and shattered, yes every time it came, i feel its still the first time, i still cry so hard, i still feel the warmth of my bed whenever im in my blue days. But no matter how i promised to myslef not to be fool when loving someone, but still until now, i cant help it. Until again a time came when you cant no longer live your life without him, until the day came that he will go, he needs to go, he wanted to leave, and you are left with just two choices, to fight for your love or to let him go.Always and almost, i choose the former, i always beg them to stay, beg for a love, for his love. BUt this very hour, ive learned to embrace goodbye, and that letting go doesnt always mean a sad ending, cause sometimes goodbye is the kindest thing to do to show how much we love him. And that, learn to move forward and never look back, again.

Been on Hiatus

My apology guys for being so idle for quite some time, i just had a very busy schedule, ive been to cebu for the last few days and do some travel, I was also busy preparing gifts for my nieces and other relatives, so far we had a great christmas celebrations with my family. We are complete there, my brother who came all the way from cebu is in the house right now until the third of January, her girlfriend is also there. And whats good is the fact that every night we always bond together, eat together and watch movie together, in fact last Christmas we went out and watch movie at the MOvie world. You knew one satisfying and fulfilling moment in our life is to be able to feel the love of our family members, cause through thick and thin, they are there for u, no matter what.

Anything For You

Im still not pretty good today,i still missed him badly..so bad..I mean can u imagine a time in your life when you really need someone to talk to and just the thought of him makes all your frustrations and disappointments gone. Sometimes its hard to preempt on what is destined for us, no matter how we like the person when its not for us, it will not really happened. I know im crazy trying to convince myself that fairy tales do come true, that somehow someone would love me for me..BUt the thought of making someone believes that he loves you hurts most..BUT id do anything for you, ill give you up if thats what makes you happy.

The Art of Letting Go...

For a heart thats been torn, theres much you can do...but to understand. Dont worry i will free you when the time came, its time for me to let you go.Theres no easy way to let go of something that i knew will never happen again, but i will face the world around me knowing that i am strong enough to let you go.Im aware that you only came into my life for a while and that time will come that i have to give you up, then that's the end of it...there goes my life.

You left me at the very moment that i cant give you up.I cry for the memories, i cry for the pain, i cry for the times i thought i had you.I knew youre not mine but holding on to you have become my way to keep me alive.Wish you see the tears that run from my eyes coz it spells the truth about how i really feel inside...dont worry m,y tears wont blame you, those are just the words my heart uses to explain, when even my smiles cant cover up the pain. Its been a while and still i cant get out from your shadow.Till this very moment i am still trying to pick up those pieces...Thank you for the love and the pain, the pain that ill always remember.Even now my heart heart still aches for sadness and secret tears still flow.One day i knew i can say, Im over you.,you are still with me even though youre not on my side.One day ill be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand.Somewhere down my journey, i knew i will fall in love again...i knew...i can.

The New Payperpost

Wish you have a great day guys? as for me my head is aching when i woke up this morning, i dont know why,hehehhe. I missed bloghopping already, i dont have update with my friends anymore, and before i forgot guys, let me tell you about the new payperpost, its really complicated and mind you it doesnt open for any browser except those that are compatible with the software and the oppurtunities are not anymore shown like before, you have to wait until the advertiser will offer you an oppurtunity. I like the old payperpost really.

Maguindanao Massacre

Too much has been said already both prints and broadcast media, but the bottomline here is the brutal massacre that were done to the victims and yet until not those alleged 100 armed men that killed almost 60 innocent lives were not yet invited for proper due process, how many days already since the crime was been commited but until now those evidences and crime accesories were just mere places on the table, if it were true that the Mayor of that said town was the mastermind of the crime, why didnt the government invited all the private armies and other gunmen that are in full circle of the mayor coz for sure one of them or maybe all of them were all in accesory of the crime. Its just sa SAD that even that backhoe that was used to grave the bodies of the victims which was owned by the provincial government which was exclusively seen by the investigators when they arrived was really set aside as the main evedence that really the provincial government has something to do with it. Its a leading evidence to the mastermind of the terrible and worst crime ever happened here. First they should investigate whoever is in charge with that said backhoe as to who was officer accountable for the release and monitoring of that said thing. Of course that government property cannot be used outside without the permission of the in-charge, very obvious. Secondly for that back hoe to be used to bury 60 innocent lives is really a big thing, the operator, the provincial goverment should be investigated with that matter. As to the update of the case, i knew its really so sensitive to discuss matter with no legal basis, but for a concerned citizen like me, i really condemned the killing and thru this small means i want to shout to my friends and visitors that really the governent should take inititiative with a definite timetable to solve the case the soonest possible time. Coz if until now theyre still on fact finding stage, really our justice system is deteriorating. If political power and influence really matters here, i guess we really cant expect justice to those innocent lives buried like garbages.

Marriage Vows

Youll surely be shocked why i post this stuff, maybe youre wondering if i will be wed soon, or just an idea of marriage may come along on this post. Its entirely no connection or whatsoever. Last night i just happened to read on a magazine an article entitled, Revelations of Happy Couples Finally revealed and its really so much inspiring, i happen to read about the different vows of happy couples, they were personally written by those couples based on their experience and the memories in it. Its so heart warming and inspiring to read those stuff, i mean there was a vow which made me so cry, the vow says " ill be forever grateful that you have chose me to be your wife and the mother of your children" it was indeed so touching, i mean not all women are so priveledged to be wed in the church and not all girls have their partners in life, for him to be able to commit himself with you for the rest of his life is such a wow. My friends often adviced me to pray my relationship always so that God will guide my decisions and of course make him the center of your life. I am not an exemption of those women dreaming to walk down the aisle too. If only finding the right man can be as simple as finding a job then i guess i have found mine but because life is about a battle, about pain, a mystery which you have to work for everyday to finally revealed the answer, then ill surely say that the man ive been waiting for in the aisle is still not yet revealed, though i can see a shadow of him but in time God will finally revealed as to whom ill say the sweetest vow of my life.

Our Travel - Cebu city

heres some of our pictures during the travel:

Rainy Monday

Its a rainy monday here in our place. I love to stay in bed and sleep the entire day but i need to report to the office and in a few minutes ill be there to finish some reports. Well i did had a great weekend, as usual i njoy it with my family and nephews. I didnt notice that some of our neighbors already put their respective christmas lights, no wonder when i went outside late last night i noticed that our place was well-lighted plus some has thier sounds. But no matter how close the christmas season, my heart is still longing for my honey, i dont know where he is right now, he told me he will just be in china for like 10 days and be back here, but anyway its not yet ten days since he leaves but i missed him terribly already. He said his phone did not work well in china thats why he was not able to text me. But im crossing my finger that he will back the soonest and be with each other arms in a few more days to go. To my honey, though i knew youre a bit in doubt as to why i did not go online the last time we agreed to chat but just want to let you know that i love you so much and nothing has change, like what ive stated in my card, i may not always tells you how much you mean to me but wherever you are ill assure you that you are always in my heart and no one could ever get that.love u