Here i am once again, after a quite a while, i am again ranting this stuff, but this time, its over. I just couldnt measure how much tears felt after all the realization that came out, it turns out that all those years, he was cheating me, not until tonight that ive read all his mails by coincidence. I didnt know how to react at first but then as sanity prevails, i keep myself relax and calm trying to figure out things as out of the difficult trials i had. Knowing him at first made me believe that the relationship would somehow works between us, but then as time goes by, it just turns out to be just one of my biggest dreams, and keping him just be exclusive would turn out to be a miracle. I knew this is too late for realization, but then i am somehow thankful for this early discovery, i knew i made a mistake once more, but then, who didnt!
There is no perfect person, and all along i was just praying for someone i would loved and love me back, a simple dream yet a dream unreachable. It so hard to long for perfection and never in my entire life i look for perfect set-up.,i just want simplcity in my journey but all along i was given a very hard road. There isnt easy, i knew.
As ive watched my wristwatch, it's past 1 in the morning and after all the pains that ive felt today i still manage to smile and i am positive that by tomorrow the sun will shine..and hopefully a bright day will await me amidst my heartaches.

