Pain is bearable if you will just think that God puts perfect timing for everything that is in accordance with His plan. Trusting HIm is the best thing to alleviate heartaches and broken hearts. Yeah, it is supposed to be what i should do, to divert my attention, my thought, my emotions and everything thats making me completly insane. Lossing him doesnt mean the end of the world, coz letting go someone you love means a new begining, a hope for a happy ending. Despite this emotional roller coaster and the unending what if? that's troubling me, isnt it desirable to ask - what is? Maybe goodbyes is really for the best, maybe creating two roads will make us grow, will make me a better person and maybe letting him go will bring him the happiness i couldnt gave at all.
For almost four years of being "us" sadly its now me and him on separate lives. Accepting the fact that its over is so hard and difficult - far painful than the definition of word. He was already a part of me, He was already in my heart, in my soul and all throught out of me. I have lots of regrets that i missed some chance with him and now that im ready to take a chance with him, but its too late to make up things. I want to hold on....
The laughter, the sorrow pictures of us, fading to memory...............
