memories

Too late for a second chance, finally ive closed the chapter of my life, those pages that i have him, primarily because hes not worth remembering...he gave me bad memories which i regret that i allow it.

meting my man was the happiest times of my life, he made me believe that i was worth of a diamond and he made me realized that my past was just a stone, he was everywhere. its hard to recall painful memories, as much as i wouldnt want to allow him to come into my senses, still i am still thinking over and over again how in this world i allow him to hurt me,i am showered now with love and care, that is why it preety amazing and sa hoard to recall painful times with the person you loved that much.

if i could just bring back the times, i would still want to met him and fall in love and get hurt but i dont want to keep him anymore...coz i know i would met my man who will love me and take good care of me.

Dont give up on us baby

my god, i just realized recently that despite everything he still owns my heart, i missed him terribly, how i wish he would still be willing to have me again, how i wish i still have him.

you know something really makes me sad, before i used to beleieve that once you have met the man who fits your standard,its easy to fall in love.....its totally wrong, coz falling in love is not by standard its how the feelings met. i dont know how i felt in love with him, all i knew i found him special already. he was the man i cant live without.

i missed my baby,.huhuhuhu

wedding

speaking of wedding, ill be attending the silver wedding anniversary of our grower,, and im in the entourage..Im really so worried, coz i dont have dress for that occassion, maybe ill just buy one, and go to the parlor for a make-over...My god, im so excited...im also dreaming to walk down the aisle soon with the man of my life.
someday i hope to see myself walking down that special aisle and my man waiting for my hands, its an every woman's dream, really..just a bit of curiousity,can anyone be willing to spend the rest of his life with me? heheheh...i hope so..
ill update you soon......mwahhhhhh

my zodiac sign

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)
Dominant in relationships.
Conservative.
Always wants the last word.
Argumentative.
Worries.
Very smart.
Dislikes noise and chaos.
Eager.
Hardworking
Loyal.
Beautiful.
Easy to talk to.
Hard to please.
Harsh.
Practical and very fussy.
Often shy.
Pessimistic.

menstrual cycle

ive received an email today from a friend about the menstrual cycle...hope you can read this and share with some of your friends...

"They found a blood clot in her neck, and immediately took her byhelicopter to the ER to operate. by the time they removed the right half of herskull to relieve the pressure on her brain, the clot had spread to her braincausing severe damage.Since last Wednesday night, she was battling.. they induced herinto a coma to stop the blood flow, They operated 3 times.. Finally, they said therewas nothing left that they could do.. they found multiple clots in the leftside of her brain.. the swelling wouldn't stop, and she was on life support..
She died at 4:30 yesterday. She leaves behind a husband, and a 2yrold Brandon and a 4yr old Justin.. The CAUSE of DEATH - they found was abirth control she was taking that allows you to only have your period 3 timesa year...
They said it interrupts life's menstrual cycle, and although it is FDAapproved... shouldn't be - So to the women in my address book - I askyou to boycott this product & deal with your period
once a month - so you can live the rest of the months that yourlife has in store for you.
*Please send this to every woman you know - you may save someone's
life... Remember, you have a CYCLE for a reason!
FYI
The name of this new birth control pill is Lybrel. If you go toLybrel.com

http://lybrel. com/ , you will find at least 26 pages of informationregarding this drug.
The second birth control pill is, Seasonique. If you go to thewebsite of, Seasonique.com http://seasonique. com/ , you will find 43 pages of informationregarding this drug.
The warnings and side effects regarding both pills are horrible.Please, please forward this information to as many daughters AND sons,co-workers, friends and relatives. Several lives have already been changed
pefully you can share this to your friends....

a new dawn

it was quite amazing how our paths cross with my baby, i mean i was just wondering how i found him,,just quite thinking, coz now now that im starting to get to know him i find myself so lucky. before that we were just on the first stage of our relationship i never appreciate his effort and everything that he does for me.but lately, i am really so overwhelmed by his attention, i really apprecaite his effort adn his love for my family and for our realationship.
most of the time he would talk about his plans for me, he would talk about us being together which made me fall in love with him...
finally last night, a strange feeling was in my heart, i guess its the fear of lossing him coz honestly i dont now how i would start again my life without him.

i need u

life is so ironic, sometimes you have to be hurt in order to be whole again,,you have to find your half to make you whole,,,partly i can say that once, i have found him,but hes gone. i dont want to find him again, i want him to find me,,,shit,,i really hate it everytime i remember him, the emptiness, the memories just makes me sad..just like now, it just ruin my day whenever i see him...or should i say i hate to pretend that im ok, when im not...life is full of pretensions,,and im sick of it...im tired of it.

one day, i want to see myself,,,happy,,with whoever i am with,contented with his love and happy with in his arms..do i have to force myself to love him? its just so sad that sometimes you have to be unfair just to see his worth.but as what ive said,,sometimes you love those who doesnt love you and you take forgranted those who does......but the end of the day youll realize youve lost a diamond coz you were busy collecting stones..

miss u

im presently in a relationship right now, however its a long distance love affair, but nevertheless i dont have problem with the set-up and i feel loved and cared by my partner, thats the most important thing.

i was not really doing well last night, since i had a flu, i really feel bad about it because before when my bf was here, he would do the laundry for me and give me medicine and food if ever he would arrive early, but last night it was really different coz he was not at my side..i remember there was a time when my head was really aching and i couldnt go out to buy food, then suddenly i was awaked by a knocked on our room, to my surprised, i saw him with fruits, foods and med,,,hehehe,,hes really so thoughtful. that's what i missed him.

hes taking right now hes last exam for captain, thats why hes so busy,and after which hes planning to apply for international route.thu were talking about it already, im still very hesistant with the set-up, of course i want my man to be with me always but if its God's will, then ill trust his plan.

hes planning to come right after their exam, and if hopefully he can make it, anyway time flies so fast,,,without noticing we would be together again.....mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

heartaches

From one kind deed to another, from one argument to the other, i always have the reason to stay and keep on believing but now after the last few drops of tears have dried, i have finally found my place out of his life.

After a tug of war of letting go or holding on, i have finally decided to cut the rope and set him free..Thu it means a pain in my heart knowing that he would be happier with somebody else arms, its still nice to see him happy thu it means im not part of it.

I can still remember the times, when i couldnt think but him in my everyday life, he was my inspiration, he was my saviour, he was my bestfriend, he was everything to me.Honestly i dont know how life was, without him.i would like to believe that he had loved me but my senses refused to coz if he does why would he allow such pain to come into my life.True, i was not expecting or the best word to say, i was overconfident..i was really blind that he would do this, but it already happened. I could still remember the times when it was better at bed and spend the day reminiscing the memories..going all over again your special moments, those wonderful times together...I had lots of regrets...i had lots of "if only..."

But now,i try to look forward and learn from my mistakes, thu i still love him, i want to think that God saves the best for me.I would like to think that someday when all the pains vanished, i would be able to smile and finally look for a new dawn, a dawn of love that will forever be mine

just droppin by..

hi,im back..hehehhe.well i have lots of things to share since ive missed writing again,,well i go home last weekened,i spend the entire days with my family.I missed them so much especially my nephews..i just slept the whole day and played with them,,just trying to enjoy the company of them.I also had dinner with my bestfriend,Dave last saturday.Well it was pretty well.we enjoy talking a lot of nonsenses things.hehhe.oh by the way,my lola is still not well the entire family prayed for her immediete recovery,,hope you do too.pls...