Friendship and Trust

Its easy to find a friend but its hard to keep it. As the saying goes "No man is an Island". Everyone of us seeks companionship to make this journey worth to remember. And once in this life, we can find a friend and sometimes friends that are not worth of your time. Friendship is tested based on your lifes ups and downs. When one person sticks with you in your odd times, then he is one of the few to keep. But sometimes you tend to disilusioned yourself about being with a true friend and afetr painful circumstance that when you realize, its better to keep off from her. I believe ive been acquinted to few people who have kept their footprints in my life, For one, i had a most trusted friend which i kept in my lifes cabinet all through out my 25 years of existence. We had each other for so long that we forgot the very day we realized, we were best of friends. I guess i have been the very best of friend to her and for sometimes she had been to me. But just recently, a painful realization took place. Though its hard to give a long journey of tested relationship for a petty argument but somehow when you think of the small things that she has done, then you realized that small thing hurt you a lot. There may be no words to explain how i felt about her at this moment coz i am becoming emotional, and i knew where i bound my limitations. I hate to admit that i am hurt and that i am hurtin by the exchange of words in between us, but no matter how i deny the fact that there is something going on between us, it will always goes out and show. I realized a friend can sometimes be negotiable, sometimes its tradable, sometimes its invisible. But more often that not, i want to believe that this is just one of the few tests we had. If it doesnt comes back, to where we were before, then its really meant to part ways. I can never trade a friend coz im a keeper but when circumstances came when TRUST is being a vital issue, sometimes i end up choosing whats good for myself and keeping the lessons in my heart.