emo..

im really not the type of person who bring along my stories, my frustrations to the open, but just to relieve this burden, i wanna just share my disappointments and my tears as well.

honestly, i felt broken..i felt empty...still dont know what to write this time,all i knew..i wanted to ease the pain..i just want to cry and cry and cry...and just sleep. hoping tomorrow, it would be a different day..

i dont dream for a perfect relationship nor look for someone so ideal,.a man who could just makes me laugh will do,.

i knew that relationship has its ups and downs, but i dont believe that it would bring all along the grief and pain..coz if he really loves me, he would look for ways not to hurt me either,,but every passing day, i always feel unloved, i feel being used, i felt that i am always alone, like i was before...whats the use of settling with the relationship?

It all started when i asked the typical question of "do u love me?" hopin he would reply with the most flattering words...as the case maybe,,,but to my dismay,,he left me hangin,,and choose not to answer at all..i know i didnt have the right to question him, coz nobody could force us to say things, if he really doesnt feel it, he was just being honest..

and i was just a dreamer...

its also my fault,,,i fall in love,,i should take the pain, the consequence...

accept the fact that he doesnt love me, he will not love me...
i dont know,,,it still hurts...

enough,,,