emotional burden

i knew for a fact that entering into a relationship is also a package, u dont love him for his positive traits but nonethless you have to accept him even on his worst sides. Patience is needed as what ive heared from everybody else, i always do that, always and almost...

They say, relationship needs rain, in order to be nouriished, it has its ups and downs, its extreme joy and pain too plus more of heartaches, and everyday emotional burden,,,as for me.

I find it too disgusting and frustrating everytime i feel that i had the emptiness in my heart thu im in a relationship as of this time, i always had the reason to feel unloved by this person, and i cant find no reason, as to why this constant feeling of mine, always disturbed me little by little.

I always believe and i want to believe that this time it would be better if not the best, i always want to give him my most precious time, showered him with love, gime my unconditional love, care and trust..BUT its always not enough, its always not appreciated.at the end of the day i always have the thought to cut the rope. i mean i dream for this, i always pray for this,and now i have this man, why do i feel not complete? why do i have the feeling always of comparing him to my ex, why do i long for somebody else arms...is this the price i have to pay for giving my all?

when i always want for just somebody else, i felt he is somebody else man, when i want to believe hes mine, i felt he is owned by another arms.

Im confused and emotionally bothered, i knew and im not naive, that his love is not for me..

but still hesistant to accept the fact, still hesitant to ask him,,coz maybe at the end of the day i would hear again the most painful answer, and i guess im just afraid that again i might realized that the fairy tale is over...love hurts..really,and i does always for me..