heartaches

From one kind deed to another, from one argument to the other, i always have the reason to stay and keep on believing but now after the last few drops of tears have dried, i have finally found my place out of his life.

After a tug of war of letting go or holding on, i have finally decided to cut the rope and set him free..Thu it means a pain in my heart knowing that he would be happier with somebody else arms, its still nice to see him happy thu it means im not part of it.

I can still remember the times, when i couldnt think but him in my everyday life, he was my inspiration, he was my saviour, he was my bestfriend, he was everything to me.Honestly i dont know how life was, without him.i would like to believe that he had loved me but my senses refused to coz if he does why would he allow such pain to come into my life.True, i was not expecting or the best word to say, i was overconfident..i was really blind that he would do this, but it already happened. I could still remember the times when it was better at bed and spend the day reminiscing the memories..going all over again your special moments, those wonderful times together...I had lots of regrets...i had lots of "if only..."

But now,i try to look forward and learn from my mistakes, thu i still love him, i want to think that God saves the best for me.I would like to think that someday when all the pains vanished, i would be able to smile and finally look for a new dawn, a dawn of love that will forever be mine

just droppin by..

hi,im back..hehehhe.well i have lots of things to share since ive missed writing again,,well i go home last weekened,i spend the entire days with my family.I missed them so much especially my nephews..i just slept the whole day and played with them,,just trying to enjoy the company of them.I also had dinner with my bestfriend,Dave last saturday.Well it was pretty well.we enjoy talking a lot of nonsenses things.hehhe.oh by the way,my lola is still not well the entire family prayed for her immediete recovery,,hope you do too.pls...

quite boring

im quite bored now,,,but i have lots of things to share,,first i went to the hospital to accompany my office mate to have his wound clean.it was really a breathtaking experience coz i really hate to see blood.hehhe,but im so thankful, it went fine.

second, ive met a cute guy today...as if if,,it was surprising,right?hehehe,but hes quite yummy and it seems he smells good...hahahha.

ill let you know tomorrow..what happened

fyi: he has a car (hahahha)

i even took a picture of his car,here it is

what a day

this is taken from our bording house, with me is my very good friend,ate joy. This is where i stayed almost everyday at ormoc, this is my home.

just a thought..

ive met this guy thru a commmon friend, and since then we were already texting almost everyday,checking each other lives,,he would oftentimes text me and check my whereabouts no matter how busy he is, knowing the nature of his work,,its really quite amazing how he finds time to know if i already eat or to check if im at home already.Almost every night, we cant hardly sleep early because we find ourselves texting even its almost 1 in the morning, but the following day he would call me to wake me up because he knew that i would be late if he would not do the effort..hehehe
And for almost a month of getting to know him, i find it surprising how in this world ive met him.He's one of a kind,,he wanted to stay in the house, just to read and spends time with his family unlike other guys who finds it really nice at bars and disco house.
Of course, im open to the possibility of him having a special woman, nevertheless it wouldnt change the fact that once in my life, he awakens me from a midnight blues..wherever our paths leads us.he would still be a fullfiilment of my ideal man.

so sad

thu it sounds like the sun shines early today, but my day seems not that good, i received a text from my brother that my lola is in the hospital, i feel really sad coz i didnt go home for almost 2 weeks and since i was so busy at work, i forgot even to ask my lola how she was...i knew that because of her age, she can feel a lot of complications on her body but with God's help, i am really praying that she will be well.
Last night, we were texting with my friend Dave, my bestfriend since my college days, he is inviting me for a dinner this saturday..and im so excited of that,,because i already missed his company..David is really a good freind,hes close to the family and he doesnt miss especial occasions with us.My birthday, new year and even just family gatherings.Our bondings made our friendship strong.And honestly, hes one of the few special men in my life whom i treasured the most. Thru thick and thin hes with me..and im really so thankful of that.

Just friends??????????????????????

This is an excrept from one of my emails which i wanted to share to all the girls who were into the "just friends" arrangement..which i think is common nowadays..and at the same time this helped me understand why the "just friends" syndrome is so widespread.A guy wants to get to know a girl but wihout the pressure of dating. So he spends a lot of time with her, treating her in many ways like a girlfriend but defining the relationship as friends. This way, if it begins to look like there's no future in the relationship, or hes not ready to get serious, he can back away with no messy break up. it sounds like a nice arrangement - for the guy.

But that approach can be a problem for the woman.If a man tells a woman he just wants "to be friends" but he treats her like its more than friendship, she will believe his behaviour instead of his words. It sets her up for a big disappointment. Or if he invokes the "just freinds" mantra after being asked about the nature of the relationship, but then promptly begins to distance himself from the friendship, again his actions do not match his words

Women can be great friends, But guys, unless you are ready for a dating relationship, please be careful to treat us, as sisters with absolute purity,not as girlfriends,,,NOR SOMETHING IN BETWEEN.

Destiny

It is not "destiny" that determines "love" it is "Choice".Our so called destiny is a LIE..
Relationships last long not because theyre destined to last long..Relationships last long because two brave people made a choice - to keep it, to fight for it and to work for it. Meanwhile other relationships failed not because theyre destined to fail. They failed because one of the two, or both made the choice - to set each other free.Sometimes we failed to understand and made a lot of allybys that we want space, or commonly we always stick to the stigma that if were really meant to be, at the end of the day we will be together??????how nice to hear..apparantly its the choice of one individual, if he felt its not working anymore,,,its over,,its not destiny,,its the feelings...sad but thats a fact.

no text

its past lunch time but i didnt received any text from him...maybe hes so busy and forgot about me...but i cant imagine coz most of the time he would ask permission..ohh my,,maybe lots of reports,,or maybe he got tired last night..hehehhe,but i know before he will go to sleep he will call me,,hehehe.hopefully.ohhhhhhhhh?

i missed him.

im really so sleepy..grabe,,imagine for almost 3 weeks i always sleep about 1 am,,,huhuhu,,my eyebags are really that big..but its ok,coz im tired from the hang outs and and texts..hehehe.
last night, i went home about 1:30 in the morning already, apparently our gate was locked,i stayed outside for almost 30 minutes,i was so afraid since there are lots of tambay in our place..i just called up my boardmate for her to open the gate,,,and she did,,thanks.heheh,after which i didnt sleep pa,,kasi we've texted pa with my friend...kasi naman po makulit..hehehe..pero love ko naman yun,,,hes really so nice,,he always awakes me when i need to be early..he would really alarm hi cell and wake up his princess..hahahhah..mwah