Rainy Saturday

Hmmmm, as my the title says itself, we had a very cold saturdy here, wish we have someone to hug and pretty good to stay in bed today. Well i dont have plans for today except to come online and wait for my babe,hmmm, curious? well and well, the babe is not from here, he is from the foreign land..hehehe. I just wait for him to come online, unfortunately we were not able to chat, maybe he was just busy, but i knew he will read this post later. Tomorrow will be a great day for me, my bestfriend in highschool arrived and she was inviting me to come over to their place tomorrow. I missed her already, might as well go there and do a little chit chats. Yesterday, we went to National bookstore and i am really amazed that as early as now, valentine cards are already saleable, yeah, there are already plenty of valentine stuff there,i am so envy with the students who were really very busy reading those cards and trying to choose what cards best fit their loved ones, but thats lfe, we have our own share of frustrations everyday, but though my heart beats for someone miles away, still i can say that he is just so near with me, coz he is always here, in my heart - everyday.

Tell Me

Honestly i was really trying to figure out what to write in here by now, my mind is not yet working, my heart is still not in good terms.Right now i am listening to the music of Joey Albert "Tell Me", going back, this song was very memorable to me, it was my favorite song wayback in my high school years, i remember dedicating this song to my 4 years crush who was just a neighbor, i remember how i shed tears whenever i hear this song especially if it was played midnight when everybody was past asleep, i remember how i was trying to buy a lot of times in there store just to see him but now i do remember him but not the feelings anymore. But by merely listening to this song, i just cant remember him but the few people who had became part of my heart, those who have take good care of it and those who have tear it and left. I knew i cant waste my life forever, holding back and holding on coz there are still few things to look forward for, though i always ask "where did i go wrong?'' and oftentimes wondered 'why did it have to end up so soon?'' but i know someday "ill let it go with this "goodbye".

Boy

A little chances of love and new love makes a new year exciting and promising, and who would not love it? who would not like to think of an idea of fallin in love, nahhhh, im not in love with just the idea of falling again, i am occupied with the thought of falling with someone i can probably say real and reel. To those who were following with my story, they knew about the love that has blossomed before, that was nourished but to my dismay it just ends up here, yeah it ends up here in this blog, the last chapter was already written and was finally closed, though he havent bid goodbye to me, what has been unsaid was already spoken through the words from my heart, and to the lalabs you once knew, he was already a closed book, its sad that our last chapter was "goodbye", but though this blog became hiatus because of the author's time for healing, finally she had realized to write again, and once again, she is into a new dawn.she is into her new shoes again, a fighter and a new and improved woman. She will never get tired of sharing her stories with u as she never gets tired of loving, of healing and of letting go. To the man who is an inspiration now, allow me to share to them our story.this maybe far from happy ending but theres always no limits in dreaming. Till then.

Little in Reserve

Giving all is fine, wonderful but do not offer it.Men like the women with the little in reserve.Let them seek you, let them find you.THose to whom you give quickly will go quickly but sometimes those who work hard for your love also go, but that is the chance we take on love.Fight no more battles - the man who will love you will not require that of you instead he will battle for your love. Have something little for your self, coz sometimes though we wish for the same thing, one wish for the other and the other wish for another, that's why they never meet.

HONESTY

...is such a lonely word...everyone is so untrue.

UNPERFECT

My friend who is very dear to me always reminds me of one thing, though its quite a joke but it really makes sense, he once asked me who invented the eraser and why the hell it was creted, i begab to think seriously, yes he was right, eraser came into the picture because we are all capable of commiting mistakes, that mistakes are inevitable. Though this friend is really a good companion, and really makes it a point to bring humor to every conversation but this thought and lesson was less than a humor, its a simple fact that made me think of it until this very day. Like in any couple or relationship, no one and nobody is perfect, one may be beautiful but is not quite a good conversationalist, one may be so perfect in our eyes but what we dont see are those that made them part ways, see?we have our own imperfect identity, i remember my ex who usually texts me everyday of the things he doesnt like about me, he said im very dominant, im selfish, i dont know how to give him the time..etc..etc..but no matter how long his lists of my imperfections i just replied by saying, that why pencil has eraser..its not yet too late for me to change and to learn from this. THough sometimes our mistakes are our wake up calls, we should not always forget that we learn from this and through this we became a new and improved person.

This morning the ex texted me still, with those long lists of things he didnt liked me, as usual, but to his dismay i just replied......

"i love being imperfect"
mwah

sent: 01/11/10
7:01 am

Been a While

It has alreaday been a while really since my last post here, yours trully had been very busy for past few days nonetheless this simple endeavor will never be forgotten, lately a lot of things happened and a lot of realizations takes place, if you would allow me, let me share to u my learnings and thoughs for this week.

1. Not all guys who were good to us can be trusted.
2. We should always give our family a priority.
3. Love cant conquer all.
4. That..the simpliest thing to be happy...is to allow yourself to be happy..(hehhe)
5. That internet dating sites are all games.
6. Sleeping really makes our aura really good.
7. That reading is a good habit before sleeping.
8. That ist good to stand first after our dinner, to allow the food to be digested and not to be stucked up.
9. That always and almost, we forgot to make God the center of our life.
10.That///PRAYER IS THE MOST POWERFUL WEAPON.and even our most impossible dream can be real if we only have faith that it will happen...try it..( just did.)

A Happy Ending

Fairy tales do, but my life hasnt, our life do not have always happy ending, farewells normally are painful. Nonetheless, as he bids goodbye i have embraced it as a great beginning, it opens up door for new prospect, it will change things, it will change my dreams and will change my destiny. I have wished to end up with him, yes and i always dream for that, but now that he has found somebody new, it has taught me to accept things and forget the memories. At least, its not yet too late to change things as i wanted, as God wants. At least he was not a father of my children, at least he is not the man i will be commited forever, im glad it has ended. For all the miseries and pain he has brought into my life, im glad God ended it in a manner i havent understand but i have trusted his will. I am glad too that God put someone whom i could lean on when things seems so weary. I am glad he bring into picture someone who was able to fix the little pieces, and hopefully it will be done very soon so that i could give him the key in it. For that someone to trust me for that little love, thank u.

Woman

To all women who had been hurt and always hurt, should learn to give it a try to be brave enough to search for the man who will love and accept us despite great mistakes, and to all men who forgot to value our heart and a reminder that women get tired too.

Happy New Year

Its already the second day of 2010, and allow me to greet all of you a very happy new year and wishing you all a blessed and abundant 2010. I noticed that hours before the change of year, there are less firecrackers now and even lesser noise compared to last year, i dont know id its just because of the heavy rain that really stayed for the entire day and even until today, just so sad, we havent enjoy to the fullest. Anyway, it did not hinder us to celebrate, our annual christmas party was really joyous and fun, a lot of children participated and lots of parlor games were prepared which really ends our 2009 well.To all my visitors, Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!