Little in Reserve

Giving all is fine, wonderful but do not offer it.Men like the women with the little in reserve.Let them seek you, let them find you.THose to whom you give quickly will go quickly but sometimes those who work hard for your love also go, but that is the chance we take on love.Fight no more battles - the man who will love you will not require that of you instead he will battle for your love. Have something little for your self, coz sometimes though we wish for the same thing, one wish for the other and the other wish for another, that's why they never meet.

HONESTY

...is such a lonely word...everyone is so untrue.

UNPERFECT

My friend who is very dear to me always reminds me of one thing, though its quite a joke but it really makes sense, he once asked me who invented the eraser and why the hell it was creted, i begab to think seriously, yes he was right, eraser came into the picture because we are all capable of commiting mistakes, that mistakes are inevitable. Though this friend is really a good companion, and really makes it a point to bring humor to every conversation but this thought and lesson was less than a humor, its a simple fact that made me think of it until this very day. Like in any couple or relationship, no one and nobody is perfect, one may be beautiful but is not quite a good conversationalist, one may be so perfect in our eyes but what we dont see are those that made them part ways, see?we have our own imperfect identity, i remember my ex who usually texts me everyday of the things he doesnt like about me, he said im very dominant, im selfish, i dont know how to give him the time..etc..etc..but no matter how long his lists of my imperfections i just replied by saying, that why pencil has eraser..its not yet too late for me to change and to learn from this. THough sometimes our mistakes are our wake up calls, we should not always forget that we learn from this and through this we became a new and improved person.

This morning the ex texted me still, with those long lists of things he didnt liked me, as usual, but to his dismay i just replied......

"i love being imperfect"
mwah

sent: 01/11/10
7:01 am

Been a While

It has alreaday been a while really since my last post here, yours trully had been very busy for past few days nonetheless this simple endeavor will never be forgotten, lately a lot of things happened and a lot of realizations takes place, if you would allow me, let me share to u my learnings and thoughs for this week.

1. Not all guys who were good to us can be trusted.
2. We should always give our family a priority.
3. Love cant conquer all.
4. That..the simpliest thing to be happy...is to allow yourself to be happy..(hehhe)
5. That internet dating sites are all games.
6. Sleeping really makes our aura really good.
7. That reading is a good habit before sleeping.
8. That ist good to stand first after our dinner, to allow the food to be digested and not to be stucked up.
9. That always and almost, we forgot to make God the center of our life.
10.That///PRAYER IS THE MOST POWERFUL WEAPON.and even our most impossible dream can be real if we only have faith that it will happen...try it..( just did.)

A Happy Ending

Fairy tales do, but my life hasnt, our life do not have always happy ending, farewells normally are painful. Nonetheless, as he bids goodbye i have embraced it as a great beginning, it opens up door for new prospect, it will change things, it will change my dreams and will change my destiny. I have wished to end up with him, yes and i always dream for that, but now that he has found somebody new, it has taught me to accept things and forget the memories. At least, its not yet too late to change things as i wanted, as God wants. At least he was not a father of my children, at least he is not the man i will be commited forever, im glad it has ended. For all the miseries and pain he has brought into my life, im glad God ended it in a manner i havent understand but i have trusted his will. I am glad too that God put someone whom i could lean on when things seems so weary. I am glad he bring into picture someone who was able to fix the little pieces, and hopefully it will be done very soon so that i could give him the key in it. For that someone to trust me for that little love, thank u.

Woman

To all women who had been hurt and always hurt, should learn to give it a try to be brave enough to search for the man who will love and accept us despite great mistakes, and to all men who forgot to value our heart and a reminder that women get tired too.

Happy New Year

Its already the second day of 2010, and allow me to greet all of you a very happy new year and wishing you all a blessed and abundant 2010. I noticed that hours before the change of year, there are less firecrackers now and even lesser noise compared to last year, i dont know id its just because of the heavy rain that really stayed for the entire day and even until today, just so sad, we havent enjoy to the fullest. Anyway, it did not hinder us to celebrate, our annual christmas party was really joyous and fun, a lot of children participated and lots of parlor games were prepared which really ends our 2009 well.To all my visitors, Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe This Time

Life is so ironic, pretty funny..When the time came the man i loved most leaved me with nothing but memories and sleepless nights, ive thought its going to be a sad ending for this year, i mean everybody wants love and love and love this holiday, we want to feel that we are loved and we want to share those love to someone especial, nonetheless God is really so good to me, i mean for a short time, HE didnt leave me, He always make it a point to make me feel that i am special. Now after few months of mending the heartaches, i can totally say that i am already over on him. And honestly my thoughts and my heart is being bothered by someone i just met on the net. BUT i am so confused still if love is possible here, hope it is. But one thing im just afraid most, is maybe the time came that i would found out again that this is just a game those guys usually play..To the man im thinking right now, i know who you are, i might not be able to chat with you today, but i read your offline message and just want to let you know that you have changed my life in just one night, the night we have chatted and i feel so comfortable with you really, that no one has ever did..I knew its still premature to say that this is it, but i want to believe this is the journey to it..Please know that you have already the key to my heart..and hopefully those little pieces ive used to love you will be enough to make you stay forever, MAYBE THIS TIME, it will be LOVE.

Goodbye....

Saying goodbye to the one so dear to us is the most painful thing to do in this world, how could we ever do that without hurting the other party, nevertheless there are lots of forms of goodbyes, some would just turn their back on you without a word, some would tell you straight in person and sadly some would show you that they still love u or will show that you are important but deep inisde their heart you are nothing but an ordinary woman for them. One time i received a text message from a good friend, it states "sometimes goodbyes are unsaid, cause though his mouth didnt say that but youre heart can tell",You knew i have been in a lot of painful experience, they have left me broken and shattered, yes every time it came, i feel its still the first time, i still cry so hard, i still feel the warmth of my bed whenever im in my blue days. But no matter how i promised to myslef not to be fool when loving someone, but still until now, i cant help it. Until again a time came when you cant no longer live your life without him, until the day came that he will go, he needs to go, he wanted to leave, and you are left with just two choices, to fight for your love or to let him go.Always and almost, i choose the former, i always beg them to stay, beg for a love, for his love. BUt this very hour, ive learned to embrace goodbye, and that letting go doesnt always mean a sad ending, cause sometimes goodbye is the kindest thing to do to show how much we love him. And that, learn to move forward and never look back, again.

Been on Hiatus

My apology guys for being so idle for quite some time, i just had a very busy schedule, ive been to cebu for the last few days and do some travel, I was also busy preparing gifts for my nieces and other relatives, so far we had a great christmas celebrations with my family. We are complete there, my brother who came all the way from cebu is in the house right now until the third of January, her girlfriend is also there. And whats good is the fact that every night we always bond together, eat together and watch movie together, in fact last Christmas we went out and watch movie at the MOvie world. You knew one satisfying and fulfilling moment in our life is to be able to feel the love of our family members, cause through thick and thin, they are there for u, no matter what.