Melamine phobia

From radio, tv and print ads, melamine is really getting so popular, even to my place, it is the favorite talk of the town. In fact, they are exaggerated reports that just put more fears to the viewing public, nonetheless, even me, at the first boom of that issue, my first question was, what is that? what are they talking about?they say its melamine? and who care about that? heck now i do....

According to wikepedia:

Melamine is an organic base and a trimer of cyanamide, with a 1,3,5-triazine skeleton. Like cyanamide, it contains 66% nitrogen by mass and, if mixed with resins, has fire retardant properties due to its release of nitrogen gas when burned or charred, and has several other industrial uses. Melamine is also a metabolite of cyromazine, a pesticide. It is formed in the body of mammals who have ingested cyromazine.[2] It has been reported that cyromazine can also be converted to melamine in plants.

Well, to make it simple, melamine is a pesticide. and for that chemical to be used as ingredient in our milk, well the world must be so crazy this time.

Bank Code in the Philippines

Just today i decided to log on to my paypal account to check updates, however i am really so pissed in my account, wherein i cannot make any transactions because of the damn buttom "unverified". It made me feel more bad, when there are just certain debit and credit card that are accepted by paypal, and when i made transaction on transferring my paypal account to my bak account, there is a need for a bank code, which the bank employee herself doesnt know of it. My goodness gracious, i am really getting to pissed this time, until pinoymoneytalk.com saves my high blood.

Heres what i found out:

Official List of PayPal Philippines Bank Codes

ALLIED BANKING CORP
010320013
ASIA UNITED BANK
011020011
AUSTRALIA NEW ZEALAND
010700015
BANCO DE ORO (& EQUITABLE PCI BANK)
010530667
BANGKO SENTRAL NG PILIPINAS
010030015
BANGKOK BANK
010670019
BANK OF AMERICA
010120019
BANK OF CHINA
011140014
BANK OF COMMERCE
010440016
BANK OF THE PHIL ISLANDS (BPI)
010040018
BANK OF TOKYO
010460012
CHINA BANKING CORP
010100013
CHINA TRUST COMML BANK
010690015
CITIBANK N.A.
010070017
DEUTSCHE BANK
010650013
DEVT BANK OF THE PHILS (DBP)
010590018
EAST WEST BANK
010620014
EXPORT & INDUSTRY BANK
010860010
FUJI BANK
010640010
HONGKONG AND SHANGHAI BANK (HSBC)
010060014
INTL COMML BANK OF CHINA
010560019
INTL EXCHANGE BANK
010680012
INTL NEDERLAND BANK
010660016
JP MORGAN CHASE BANK
010720011
KOREA EXCHANGE BANK
010710018
LANDBANK OF THE PHILS
010350025
MAYBANK OF THE PHILS
010220016
METROPOLITAN BANK & TRUST CO
010269996
PHIL BANK OF COMMUNICATION
010110016
PHIL NATIONAL BANK (PNB)
010080010
PHIL TRUST COMPANY
010090039
PHIL VETERANS BANK
010330016
PRUDENTIAL BANK
010150018
RIZAL COMML BANKING CORP (RCBC)
010280014
SECURITY BANK & TRUST CO
010140015
STANDARD CHARTERED BANK
010050011
UNION BANK OF THE PHILS (UBP)
010419995
UNITED COCONUT PLANTERS BANK
010299995
UNITED OVERSEAS BANK
010270189

emotional stuff.

Every woman should know how to fall in love without losing herself, that line reminds me of a great teacher, whom during one of our lectures, shared a very inspiring story between her and hes husband. To sum up, there stories were the typical love inspired theme, wherein both had the chance to prove to each other, that theyre worth of their love, as what our teacher quoted "in my marriage years, i never got tired of waking up each morning, still seeing his face beside me in fourty years". Her story reminds me of one great realization, that in this life of ours, its not important to marry a handsome, rich or a man in every womas dream, neither you think of a man who provides you a great conversation, who would love you despite all body changes, and marry someone who could provide smiles in your face amidst troubles in our life.

At my age, i am already thinkin of marrying, perhaps settling for good would not be that far from my priorities, im not getting any younger. To be honest, i want to pour out my bitterness and the ache that my heart is feeling right now, but as much as i want to, i want to provide privacy for him and for the relationship. I dont want to pretend i am ok, when im in turtored, i dont want to fake my smile just to let them feel that i doing great, because deep inside i am dying in pain. Pain that i still dont know, if i deserve this because i knew i did my best and i have given enough to prove to him, that he was so special, but even for courtesy's sake he didnt gave me the respect i knew all along i was worth it. I would say that for the sake of love, because i admit he doesnt have that for me, because even in simple layman's thinking, if he does..he would not allow such things to happen to me, to be hurt constantly and terribly? is that love?

I dont have other avenue to tell all this stuff because this things is getting more private, but to my readers, i just want to ask for considerations and please bear with me for this.

ill write soon,..promise

Another Goodbyes

."nights like this,i wish raindrops would fall to cover my tears"....

It's Saturday

A great saturday morning to everyone, i am writing this post about past 6 am in my time, its too early for me to do blogging..hehehe..anyways, i will be going home today to my place, since today is my time to bond with my family. I am planning to do some cooking at home or baked some great stufff, im thinkin of sweets this time, coz i missed doing those things, what you think?

Well, i wish everyone will do have a great weekends...

stupidy of me...

It was already midnight when i was really having a hard time going to sleep, its as if my eyes were too lazy to rest, or its my mind that was too busy, trying to find the reasons why my life was full of stupidity, perhaps this is what we call to people who were too crazy to think of other people more than of themselves despite past events that proved that they were never been the best choice but a last alternative.

Before i always blamed my past for the painful memories that was never really worth reminiscing, I blame my ex for being too insensitive to what i felt, i blamed my heart then, for giving my all, and leaved nothing for myself. But after a year of moving on, i was so fortunate that I was able to wake up, still able to proved to the whole damn world that I was a new and improved woman, better than ever.

However, my heart was never getting tired of being broken into pieces everytime someone else owned it. I even wondered how come every passing day i was still able to apprciate the word " love" despite its painful memories in my part.

BUT, its still love that makes me want to wake up every morning, hoping that this time around, someone will proved to me that, theres always one side of the boat.

Think of Laura

I just heared a beautiful song, which made me post the lyrics because it really gave me a different mode emotionally.
Hope you like it too, heres the lyrics

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Every once in a while I'd see her smile

And she'd turn my day around

A girl with those eyesCould stare through the lies

And see what your heart was saying

Think of Laura

but laugh don't cry

I know she'd want it that way

When you think of Laura

laugh don't cry

I know she'd want it that way

A friend of a friend

A friend to the end

That's the kind of girl she was

Taken away so young

Taken away without a warning

I know you and you're here

In every day we live

I know her and she's here

I can feel her when I sing

Hey Laura, where are you now

Are you far away from here

I don't think soI think you're here

Taking our tears away

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Pity me

Last night, i was on deep thought because i am having really a financial problem considering that i lost all my savings when i was hospitalized,it came to a point that when i went back to work, i dont have even a single cent plus my medication is really too expensive. It really made me feel so bad because thu i wanted to make things fine, i couldnt because i dont even had enough money to sustain my medication plus i will have my check - up tomorrow and i still dont know if i would be able to visit my doctor...poor me.. Sometimes in desperation, i end up crying because i really didnt foresee things like this..in financial burden..BUT i believe that things are not constant, everything subject to change, hopefully as i wake one morning, all this stuff are over. how i wish its very soon.

The game your lovelife most resembles is:

a. Chess - you mount all kinds of men, then knock them out of the picture..Next please!

b. Poker - you dont know all your cards to your playmates, until the time is right.

c. Monopoly - you like claiming your property.

a very happy birthday to me

Well, since i havent greet myself on my birthday, i will take this post to greet myself a very happy birthday to me *sigh*..hehhe..because of inevitable circumstances, i celebrated my birthday at the hospital, the celebration i was planning to have was postponed due to my illness, but then since everything is fine now, im crossing my finger that someone could remember me and gave me a surprise...hehhhe..just kidding...a good health for me and for my family is enough gift...